Today has been one of those days, you know you must do things, but the time it takes to get them done means you can't do them. That must sound complicated - but in my mind it makes perfect sense.
Today has been spent revising a poet named Frank O'Hara (Has to be my favorite poet, bar Wordsworth). Reading his manifesto I came across this quote:
"Try to avoid being logical, pain always produces logic, which is very bad for you"
This is the reason it takes me so long to complete small tasks - I find a certain quote, picture, painting or even a whole poem that I become fixated on for the next hour or so. I have been thinking about the above quote, and pecking at it, desperate for a meaning. Ironically, this is exactly what O'Hara is telling me not to do. To me, logic seems essential! Something that I must have in life. For some reason, I have yet to grasp, I strive for logic, organisation and control in my life. However sometimes, striving for these things can hinder me in my journey.
Long contemplation's like these are inexorably important, not only for my development as a human but my development as an aspiring journalist, and bloggist. I must learn however (and I will with time) to learn how to keep these contemplations as merely those. I can not spend hours, like I do, fixated on the topic.
I am a serial daydreamer, no harm is there?